Everything changed in 2014.
My daughter was a year and a half old, and I walked out of my abusive marriage with her in one arm and a suitcase in the other, leaving my life of almost ten years behind. To say I was in a dark place would be an understatement.
I had to stop pretending, and own why ended up where I was.
I had spent years living under the weight of making myself smaller, in order to fit the story other people told me I was supposed to fit.
I had spent years sacrificing my wants and needs.
I had spent years stifling my voice, in order to make other people comfortable.
I had given up on boundaries, and stopped taking care of myself.
I felt like a failure…
And then life imploded, and I realized I couldn’t spend another second living the way I had.
I picked up my life, and started rewriting my story.
Over the next three years, I slowly took control back.
I started a private psychotherapy practice, built it into a thriving one woman show, and nurtured a professional reputation I finally felt proud of. I made more money in my private practice than I ever made working in community mental health, and realized I could be a thriving business owner as long as I put my mind to it.
In my personal life, I literally and figuratively cleaned house.
I ended the toxic relationships (including my marriage) which had become so exhausting. I bought a home – my home – and got rid of all the possessions which no longer served a purpose in the life I was trying to build.
I lost 30+ pounds, became a life coach, personal trainer, and certified nutrition coach. I found ways to nurture a healthy relationship with my body, once and for all.
I stopped apologizing for failing at trying to live up to a story which was never meant for me.
I became a decision maker in my life again.
I dug deep, and learned how to lean into what it means to be relentless.
It wasn’t, and still isn’t, always easy.
But to be operating on integrity, being authentic, and owning my story…
It is always worth it.
I am now living my ‘fuck yes’ life.
My best life.
Here’s to being Unapologetic for my story.